**faCinG RealitY_]]

2010-12-26T20:00:00.002+08:00

xmas is over!
im kinda feeling suan suna de feeling!
i kinda wan and dun wan xmas to come.
LOL!
i know i cant have both but..
now its over... im gonna to have to wait for next year.
i can feel that xmas is the only time when everyone's looking so forward to.
;D everyone is having that christmasy mood.
all waiting for the end of the year.
for a new beginning.
if only i could have one.
i wuld change myself..
now new year resolutions.
hmm~
did i achieve anything this year.
i dun think so!
sighs.
next year is just 1 whole year of ARMY totally!
i wonder if its gonna be fine.
im wondering whether i can pass ippt.
LOL!
i love yet hate xmas.
its means that im gonna feel sad again.
):
i know all good things have to end but.
i cant accept it.
it spoils the whole xmasy mood!
when orchard all lit up~
when everyone's embracing the spirit of giving.
when everyone is waiting for presents.
i'm tinking about the end of xmas. D;
even now. im still tinking about the end of next year's xmas!
OMG!
sighs.
i cant imagine the time when my section ords!
i'll be damn sad ):
can time stop just for me?

2010-11-30T20:11:00.002+08:00

coming to EPO made me kinda fatter D:
i've gained 5KG! like within 2 months. how wuld i ever survive.
i didn really eat more. but i tink i kinda exercised lesser.
imaginations will never take me anywhere.
just plain daydreaming is wad i do.
and i tink thats wad im best at.
LOL!
everyone got sumthing they are best at rights.
siighs.
well.
coming to this new place made me realize sumthing important.
humans are never simple.
even though i try to think they are.
they think im dumb. innocent and uber guillible.
I AM LIKE THIS!
i dun want people to keep taking advantage of me D:
or think that im dumb.
not saying anything doesnt mean i dun mind! D:
....................................................
people around me i know are like super fake.
backstabbing all around.
i wonder who is like real.
i just cant stop worrying that i'll say the wrong things
or make people not like me.
i dun wanna be hated ):
i dun wanna be seen as a burden to people.
i know im not gonna pass ippt. but im not doing anything
WADS WRONG WITH ME?!
):
I HATE MYSELF.
even 2sgts said de same thing.
everyone in my section pass.
except you...
i dunno whether they are trying to play reverse psychology on me or sumthing.
but its totally not working ):
........................................................
this few time i know that its kinda too late to regret stuff.
I;VE LOST MY BEST FRIENDS IN SEC SCHOOL
BECAUSE OF SOME DUMB QUARREL. and i know now its totally not worth it
even if i won that quarrel.
very sad to lose them. but its super weird to like patch up with them now.
after dunno how many years of not talking...
i hope that i'll be able to pass thru the 1 year 2 more months of NS!
i'll miss everyone in NS ):
i cant bear the feeling of separating again.
it hurts totally.

2010-11-07T12:13:00.002+08:00

this week was my official week into EPO!
well~~ i could say its tiring..
hahas! most of my duties now are still under studying people.
and learning the basics of 2IC & morning docu jobs!
which is like the most difficult ones.
i did one of each ... learnt almost everything :D
the next thing is just to put it to test.
the first time of my mounting...
i screwed up quite a bit.
and im uber guilty for cuz-ing more trouble for people D:
monday will be my third duty.
will become the 2IC.
this time ... by myself !!!
OMG! i seriously scared sumthing bad will happen.
i dun have the confidence that i'll be able to do it.
):
everyone says they will be helping me.
and i can ask if im in doubt.
i know i will...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
arghh
why am i having this sad feeling again...
):
i keep looking out of my window.
at they sky...
which means i've loads on my mind.
and listening to sad songs doesnt help ):
but im still doing that -.-
maybe all i need is someone to confide to.
someone that i'll be able to rely on.
someone who can gimme a nice big hug no matter what (:

2010-11-03T22:38:00.001+08:00

LYRICS:
REGINA SPEKTOR- THE CALL
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye...

<3

2010-10-31T07:52:00.002+08:00

very long lerhs! loads to write about...
been posted to new sub-unit le!
EPO(escort & processing office)!
im gonna spend my 1 year 4 months here!
omg~ its sounds like a long time lehs...
ehhh been hoping a lot to come over here!
people here are nice and the environment is awesome too:D
i tink its great! but seniors said i haven seen the worst...
welll.!
im sure i can make it! after so long!
watching dramas isnt a nice way to spend my leave D:
make me tink of things that are so impossible!
imagining stuff again!
moving further away from reality! *ITS BAD! FOR ME*
sumhow i feel that i've been drifting far away from my frens.
all the relationships i've made seem so fake.
arghh. for some reason i kinda get this tiny tinge
of lonliness again.
i tink too much
i dream too much
i imagine too much
of impossible things
that i really hope could be possible.
holding on to a dream that might never come true.
it may not mean much but i tink its the only form
of motivation for me to carry on in life.
since now i ask i myself.
what am i fighting for...?
why am i on this planet earth...?
am i to live or to survive....
i hope one day i would be able to say
im on planet earth to live and not to survive.

2010-10-03T17:55:00.002+08:00

hmmm im back after a long time of posting already.
!!!
a great decision that i made that day didnt really happen.
cuz of my indecisivness...
thats a good thing :D n im still alive.
talk to me 1 week ago...
the only words i wuld say was...
'huh?'... *with a blur & extremly depressed look.
but noW! i much much better.
well, most of it had to do with army.
D:
it sucks.
PREEVIOUS LIFE:
SUCKED TO THE MAX! D:
ALMOST DIDNT MAKE IT!
SIIGHS
HAD MORE MONEY!
PRESENT LIFE:
MONEYLESS!
no money lerhs! im spending so so much everytime.
siighs.
mostly or almost everything on food...
each meal almost cost like 30 plus???!?!
how to survive hor.
plus now.
no meals indented.
GG!
hahas...
trying to save until pay day! 1 more week :D
omg...
but im gonna have MARCHE with anna this week again!
lols.
diee~~~~~
life is now 8-5 daily. with nth much to do.
cuz im understudying people.
so....
its slack as u can call it.
but another 2 more weeks and its a different story altogether.
*I MISS MP BASIC*
most likely cuz there's a lot of quebec peeps!
now...
only im left...
de rest are not really here!
ARGHH~
1 year 5 more months to GO!

2010-09-11T21:58:00.002+08:00

yoo~~!
POP on tuesday lehs! its gonna be here soon already! :D
kinda happy and sad at de same time.
mostly cuz im gonna miss my frens!
and also anxious to see how my new unit is like!
arghh!!!
this week although 4 days!
kinda slow!
gotta nites OUT! woots~~
hahas!
we practically didnt do much except for chem def!
zOMG?!
that i almost died!
lol
not literally...
but my face nose eyes are like burning!!!
super spicy those kind!
...
nvr going in that chamber place again..
!!!!
well HARI RAYA! yeppies
got another day off...
went to play mahjong 3 peeps with stan & daniel
didnt win much. only a dollar after like 6 hours of playing
lols.
its like -.-
then went to vivo to meet up with many many peeps!
but kinda sad cuz i went late.
then also madde them wait.
then all so early go back de..
arghh~!~!~!~! cant believe it..
VIVO was CROOOWWWDED!
almost every restaurant was fully packed.
wanted marche de...
but it was a 2 hours queue....
lols
all pangseh me and mg left nia.
nvms la.
hahas.
today....
went to MARCHE! finally.
with anna!
:D
ate super a lot.
SUPER A LOT!
all de nice stuff! we tried almost everything...
:x
de rosti was OMGGOSH! nice until nth to describe.
lol.
de CREPE also....
must go again!
very few people i can go out with and spend so much together!
and dun really care :x
can also guess de price was also very nice...
but still below my expectation.
its 80 bucks.
i tot its 100... LOL! :x
hehE!
oh yeah...
my no.3....
i SCARED i cant fit into it!
im getting fatter already?!?!
yeahhh.
later do marching it tear....
zomg.

2010-08-31T16:37:00.002+08:00

eeks!
im at home now! :D
attended C ytd...
fever. :x LOL!
siann-ed
sumthing i miss about myself is my hair.
i want it to grow faster lehs.
its kinda very slow...
going back tonite!!
hmmm things are definetely troubling me.
but haish i dunno what they are and who to tell.
field camp is over already! yay for that!
field camp really tells u everything about people's personality.
serious.
its de times when u see ur true frens.(:
see people who cant cope under stress.
etc.
feelings start to show.
mostly sucky feelings & yes they all landed up on me.
cuz im a man... no choice eh.
even though they say oh i dun mean it when they scold u.
deep down its how they feel. if not why wuld it ever show in de 1st place.
wad a load of crap.
2 more weeks to POP!
OMG ..
rumours spreading round that im into sum unit that i dun desire.
haish.
):
i expressed my interests.
but...
nvm.
i wanna stay within a dream and dun come out again! D:

2010-08-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

oh next week will be field camp.
im sick and uite terribly also.
blocked nose until arghh.
):
needa get medicine lo... haish.
stressed~ not cuz of army but cuz of other stuff.
things arent that smooth-sailing.
thats all u can say...
i dunno how to react. -.-
this week was slack but... no comments.

im looking up at de dark nite sky now.
same as always when im back home.
tonite's sky looks darker.gloomier than what its suppossed to be. ):
feeling downright low.
emo.
superbly.
crys...
even eating so much ice cream doesnt cheer me up
sugar aint working anymore.
where can i find happiness.
i need just a glimpse of it.
just to remind myself how does it feel like again.
nothing in me seems to be having a bit of happy...
things are complicated.
why cant it be simple.

2010-08-15T12:10:00.002+08:00

how can i describe my feeling now...
emo!!
dunno why suddenly so depressed.
siighs
tinking bout de future aint sumthing i wanna be looking forward to
haish...
& maybe cuz im listening to an emo-ish song bahs thats why lorr
):
de 5th week gone.
another 4 more weeks.
to be a full-fledged MP.
de orange brassard lerhs.
hmm~ wondering where i will be posted to.
learning about de wartime stuff.
wonders whether iever gonna use it.
never.
....
feeling kinda crappy when this week aint gonna be good.
haish. D:
next next week field camp le.
owww~!
worrying about my education...
):
i dun wanna face reality
i wanna be dreaming forever!
can that ever happen.
thats maybe too big a wish...

2010-08-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

never deny the true feelings of your heart.
do not doubt it for it may be the most
regretful thing you have ever done.

2010-08-01T20:35:00.002+08:00

...
1 more hour and back to camp i go.
i dun feel that sad anymore.
yet that feeling of a huge burden in my heart
still lingers...
something heavy
haish.
last time when i look up into the nite sky.
i ponder deeply think hard & relax but always feel even more emo.
now.
i stare up straight.i dun get that feeling i once had.
i miss that feeling.
that lonely part...
my imagination... visions... were gone.
i hope that isnt long.
for i wish that the next time i look at the stars.
i would feel once more.
everynite i would tink...
whenever i tink too much
tears would start swelling up
not in my eyes but my heart.
i want to cry it all out.
but that isnt gonna help.
but just a temporary relief....
i dunno what im battling against.
i dunno why im so depressed for.
but i feel sad & lonely.

life in camp is fine as usual.
with the schedule all tightly packed.
there is no time for rest.
everything is so important.
but then i tink...
how would that help me next time.
...
it wouldnt.and yet.i have to be learning it.
having guard duty on national day isnt helping either.
haish.

ooo
just met up with vian ytd...
i just realized that in a blink of an eye.
6 months just passed.
and she's reaching her prelims soon.
....
even before i knew.
1 year is gonna pass by.
year by year.
things are passing by so fast.
too fast for me.
the future...
i dun want it to reach me too fast!
im not ready!
NOOO!
im not...

last nite i had this very weird dream.
i was with this person(cant remember who was it).
i was in another country.(cant remember either).
...
i was struggling hard. very very hard!
i was super late for the airplane back to s'pore.
we reached the check-in counter 1 min before departure.
i was beggin the staff to lemme check in!
cuz the next plane back wuld be too late.
too late for a very important event (which i cant remember)
this dream felt so real....

currently reading a book by de singaporean author
its very touching & addictive.
ooo.
bringing it to camp to read.
its gonna make me sad again! D:
& in that book it wrote.
as long there is love, there will be hope.
its meaningful.
but i tink i've given up hope on love.

2010-07-25T09:23:00.002+08:00

ooo finished the second week of my MP course.
another 7 more weeks to POP! again~
lols.
weeks seriously gets tougher and tougher... arghh.
next week is packed with almost physical stuff.
especially ippt lehs.
i dun wanna RT ):
the PT aint easy.
it makes u ache all over D:
and why must they increase our route march to 6km -.-
SIAN!
discipline is high i guess.
it isnt like RHC any more.
and well i get to march better too.
cuz i scare kena scolded :x
LOL!
if not i also bo chap one lehs.
next week
x IPPT
x ML & LECC,SAS TEST!
x 6km ROUTE MARCH
x 1st DRILLS & CCT!
the schedule makes me feel like going awol.
...
hahas!
well~
i hope that i'll be able to get into either the SIB/ISB!
or DOG WING UNIT!
everything's damn cool! but more of passsion bahs!
cuz i love animals! :D
and ISB/SIB can help with work in de future.
and its super interesting to deal with investigations etc!
gonna see inception laters wonder if its that nice :x
hahas!
**i dun wanna book in **

2010-07-18T14:23:00.000+08:00

wouldnt have any regrets even if his life ended now.

2010-07-18T13:53:00.002+08:00

hmm~
first week at MP wasnt that bad.
mostly lectures.... and more lectures.
most of them are quite funny and interactive.
thats how i didnt fall asleep.
MP...
has to learn how to shoot gun and pistol.
2 day 1 nite out field.
and thats mostly it.
... and then a POP.
orhh. i must pass ippt again to pass out.
arghh...
i wonder what my next few weeks are gonna be like.
they said the postings are all up to them.
~~~
haish.
guard duty for de rest of ur 2 years doesnt sound appealing hor.
i really wanna gett into the dog wing!!
or if not i will wanna get into SIB/ISB!
not cuz its 8-5! -.-
cuz mostly people wanna that...
but cuz i really like animals super duper love them!
and also i find doing investigations uber cool!
its an interesting & very hands on job that gives u skills
for ur future work.
like observation, report-writing etc...

8 more weeks there.
life as a PTE is tough.
seriously, when u are a man. u are treated like one too.
... D:
although there is more freedom...
but yeah.
there are a lot of things that are not under ur control.
yepp.
so there is quite a lot of quebec/ rocky hill people there.
so it isnt that bad for me to adapt and make frens (:
at least i have people to talk to.
hahas!
but the feelin aint the same.
dun really click well or share the same bond i had with platoon 3.
):
really missed BMT!
sobs~~

feeling lonely.
alone again.
lost & confused.
many many thoughts
excessive imaginations
loads of worries.
life isnt good... at all.

2010-07-11T12:43:00.002+08:00

back from my taiiwann trip lerhs!
its not really that amazing but it was fun with my platoon mates :D
given a choice hor i dun tink i wanna go back lerhs >.<
singapore better !
LOL!
well days of mostly shopping got one day we went to theme park
omg that one of the scariest ones :x
even though i never take much of the rides
hahas
there was this cycling thing in the air.
OMG i screamed almost for everything...
that whole day was super fun!
cuz i was de photographer for almost de whole day
:x
then we went to wu fen puu!
loads of shopping :D
its like many many bugis streets combined!
lol

shilin yeshi!
FOOD PARADISE
everything u can have...
milk tea, cheesyy potato, fried milk, xiao long bao!
many many more!
oh yeah :x
i tried one JI PIGU! OMG
its like .... no comments hahas!
got a lot of bones.
so i dun really like it

xi men ding is like singapore's orcchard road.
and our hotel is like in the middle of it ...
LOL! its like shopping everywhere when u come out
oh oh! and there's this bubble tea shop
next to the hotel that sells de best pudding milk tea :D

went to this memorial hall place and this temple.
lols!
i dun know why i went.
but its kinda eye opener.
and super hot!!
cuz its at least 38 degrees there!!!

haish.
coming back means that im gonna leave everyone else.
going to a new unit le
MP unit at mowbray camp!
i miss PTP!!
arghh .
emo~~
its just tml
cant believe that its so fast.
platoon mates that went to scs .. ocs...
went to others!
jia YOU! & good luck!
dun know when we'll be meeting again lerhs.
):

2010-06-27T18:25:00.002+08:00

after writing this post i'll be having my last book-in!
D:
haish it makes me feel kinda sad and i dun wanna that!
i wun be able to spend time with everyone else le.
siiighs....
last week was recruits afternoon, OC afternoon & games day!
omg!
well the world isnt fair and yepp.
we didnt win cheerleading but we got 2nd.
its kinda sad but its choiceless...
politics in play and there's the result of it.
OC afternoon!
i tink our platoon did it the best!
and we got the most applause etc. :D
recruits evening is just pure eating and indulgence..
yumm~
i tink i ate the most :x
the weather isnt looking very good at the moment too.
gonna rain soon.
awww.~
i'll misss platoon 3 very much.!
most of us are able pass ippt.
and im glad that im one of them too.
it has beeen wayy longg since i passed.
or did i ever pass?
....
lols.
anyways all the best and many many lucks for those who are going to
re take their ippt!
JIAYOU!
last week in tekong and i hope it will be the best week in tekong :D

2010-06-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

omgs!
i cant believe i finished 16km of route march
LOL!
its seriously unbelievable.
welll~ i wasnt so shagged out this time compared to de one for sit test.
(:
arghh.
next week is kinda slack.
2nd last week already.
i super cant bear to leave all my platoon mates D:
our last book out next week .
our 2nd last book in tml.
OMG?!?!
time passes really fast.
4 months has just passed.
...
which unit am i gonna be posted to?
lols.
thats sumthing that i will in for de next 1 year 8 months?
the only thing left.
RE-IPPT.
SOC.
24KM ROUTE MARCH.
DDD:
all sounds tough.
in 2 weeks time its all gonna be over.
and then.
haish.
just feeling kinda emo-ish
....
just realized that sum people have true colours they never reveal.
just like me.
some times people can see thru them.
and of cuz that aint a good thing.
thats when u seriously feel like punching their faces.
:x
hahas.
lemme talk about de good things bahs.
...
gonna eat with MG they all steamboat :D
played mahjong although i lost a lot... of fake money :D
CHEERLEADING... i dun know whether thats a good thing a not.
last book out next week!
jia you people!
our last 24km MARCH!

2010-06-13T14:51:00.002+08:00

OMG!
3 more weeks in tekong ...
it doesnt seem very long anymore
seriously i really dun feel like leaving my frens n all.
D:
lemme count.
3 more book in to tekong including this week's freaking early one!
arghh
its like soon.
yepp
no more confinement!
NO SIT TEST ! FIELD CAMP!
last thing remaining...
route march both 16 and 24 km.
thats the one that really kills me.
i feel so like giving up.
so unmotivated .
so wrong being there in tekong...
well wadever.
not gonna talk about all these.
had a great weekend!
went to spend time with army frens.
kushinbo xD
plus that "route march" led by meng guan to marina barrage at NITE?!
we took one day to reach there.
cuz we started walking at 11 plus and reached there at 12am plus
LOL!
seriously the scenery is not bad!
worth the walk.
and of cuz we cabbed back ...
i got to book out next tuesday for de appointment for my feet!
see i nvr chaokeng lo! :X
and haish.
i wun be able to go taiwan already.
D:
sadly...
im so sorry.
i got to go over to australia to take a look at my uni.
and visit my cuzz and uncle there....
choiceless.

2010-05-30T20:49:00.002+08:00

why do i suddenly feel so sad.
so lonely.
WHY?!??!
its like all of a sudden after i watch prince of persia.
...
):
sian.
my mood is now at its lowest.
i dun have the interest to do anything now.
all i tink of now is to sleep.
at least i wun be having this feeling cuz im sleeping.
at my ah ma house now..
so tempting to sleep cuz im in de air con room
on a bed.
:x
but i gotta finish wad i have to do 1st at least.
no matters.
i hope tml will be better la hor.
i tink its like pre-book-in-syndrome.
...
saddddded

2010-05-30T13:57:00.002+08:00

omgoshes! already been out for de 2 days le hahas!
got a super long weekend thanks to vesak day & off-in-lieu
...
ate quite a lot actually...
also played like almost non stop.
lann-ed for 2 days.
L4D2!!! :D
i still feel like playing it now.
zzz
haven bought mummy day present yet...
aarghh.
shuld be tml go buy (:
and pei ah ma go foot massage!
i really dun wanna go back to camp le.
the spending also quite a lot ahs.
like 100 plus for 2 days le.
LOL!
but anyways i next week wun be booking out cuz of sit test!
means no $$ spending.
this will be a long week too.
and POP seems closer than ever now.
i really cant bear to leave my platoon mates!
omg!
bu she de lo...
although i haven went to any section outings yet...
but i will la hor!
soon to come (:
gonna go ah ma house laters.
and now trying to do sumthin about my uni..
my future.
it seems bleak.
i dun wan to tink about it now.
just enjoy the times im having now.
hahas!
skool hols just started and my bro is already playing non stop..
while im training in some army camp.
-.-
i tink i might have gained some weight :x
see-ing how much im eating lol!
saw some of my jc frens going thru field camp now.
awww.
i wish them all de best bah!
they will need it
hahas!
it seems that my coy is quite good!
:D
love it!
oh yeah ippt coming soon!
i dunno whether can pass a not.
zzz.
i seriously doubt so.
plan after POP!
taiiiwannnn!
pierce ear(decided on de side le)
eat eat!
need my hair back!
thats all for now :D

2010-05-23T20:31:00.002+08:00

well it has been a long time since i blogged'
well its after field camp and omg?@
it sucks totally like shit practically that was de most horrible time
of my entire life.
...
i dun need NS i dun need that 2 years of my life to succeed
so many out there have done it.
wad makes us tink that we wuld be better with NS
..
in fact it sucks.
to da max.
to be truthful it wuld be da worst 2 years.
i dun know why people say tat it wuld be de best,
omg.
so many feelings overcame me during field camp but im not gonna pen it down,
its best to keep it within myself

2010-05-08T13:10:00.002+08:00

“The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened.”
i saw this super meaningful quote.
sumthing that i've experienced but cant put to words.
sumone else did.
this week was mostly pt.
and also ippt.
i not very sure how i did.
but i did much better than de previous time.
next week field camp.,
i dunno where or how i will get de motivation to carry on.
i just hope i can.
esp in de nite.
just before i fall asleep.
a glance of the enchanting nite sky with the stars and the moon
would be enough to let me carry on for the day.
i also hope that i'll be able to dream up sumthing fantastic.
xD
sumthing i nvr tot before.
next week IFC.
and ippt again.
before field camp.
and soon the month of may will be over already.
another month before POP-ing.
i must make it.

2010-04-25T09:03:00.002+08:00

well well wad do u know.
BMT is now here already?!
omgoshes
its gonna to be much more tougher than PTP!
a lot more.
especially de activities that we are gonna have.
SOC?!
RANGE?!?
field camp?!?
haish.
just tinking of all these stuff makes me wanna make time past FASTER!
ARGH
at least next week is just only range.
:D
and its like around 9 more weeks before it ends!
YAY!
medicine interview went quite okays xD
wasnt that bad.
and i haven gotten any reply from VET or AVA yet.
D:
its like chances are like damnn low.
and im feeling freaking dejected.
im like gonna apply for another university .
shuld be murdoch.
i hope i can get a faster reply.
and also de scholarship interview too.
just stop making me worry so much.
last week was totally crap with the route marches that totally sucks.
and i feel that we shuldnt have so many of them
-.-
waste of everything!
sian.
i tink im having a fever.
and i cant get an MC.
cuz its RAnge!!!
so i'll just go see doc for a ATT B bahs.
:D

2010-04-18T14:02:00.002+08:00

6th of PTP is gone already!
well its like almost gonna be the start of bmt already?!
thats kinda fast...
and with more of the main batch coming into enhanced BMT!
tekong will be crowded again! :D
lol
from the 26th to 28th april...
and then we can start laughin at them when they get their confinement already!
hahas!
cuz we already had ours D:
hmmm gotta go in soon at 1955 laters.
i hhope the 7th week of ptp will be easy too!
not that hard puh-lease!
well we are like slowly going into bmt already.
doing tech handling and having range soon!
the next ippt.
7th may!
thats not a long time away.
only 2 more weeks nia.
haish.
i dun tink i will able to improve much by then.
lol.
...
but i want to improve!
i MUST!
at least a pass before POP!
arghh.
i hate route marches!
pure torture!!!
haish.. i dunno why they want us to do it... :x
i hope tml have route march. cuz i;ll be able to skip it XD
oh yeah tml...
medicine interview!
sian...
feeling a lil' nervous already.
thinking of questions they may ask.
so much things i must rmb!!!
OMG?!
* i hope i can last *

2010-04-11T19:44:00.002+08:00

gonna be back in camp soon already!
haish!
another 5 more days in camp.
and who knows how much we got to do this week.
...
sian.
12 more weeks aint a short period of time.
took de medicine essay test today.
it was okays.
general type of question lehs...
and wow.
the candidates are a lot.
around 750 if im not wrong.
and only 250-260 will be doctors.
1/3 of us.
hmmm.
will i be the lucky few.
i still have 2 more interviews.
worried...
and wad about the scholarship for my vet.
they still havent gave me a reply. D:
kinda long~~
i hope this week passes smoothly and fast!
& the only good thing is ...
i got my IPHONE 3GS 16GB!
yeppie!!!

2010-04-10T11:34:00.002+08:00

some things are just well.
u wun ever wanna wish for them.
...
u will never understand how some other individual feel like.
if u see someone that u admire...
and then u say i wish i could be just like him/her.
i suggest that u seriously think hard.
everyone has their problems.
u will never know how much they are suffering.
behind your back.
their weak fragile side.
some people are just good at hiding them.
but there will be a point where eveyone breaks down eventually.
how much u can take...
i dunno.
but i tink im reaching my limit soon...
i wanna extend that limit.
to not reach it so soon.
but im not able to.

2010-04-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

siighs gonna be another weeks of ptp in CAMP!
1825... got to be there lerhs.!
D:
well this weekend was quite nice!
watched 2 movies both at amk hub.
-.-
DRAGONS IS FABULOUS AWESOME FANTASTIC WADEVA U CALL IT!
CLASH OF THE TITANS IS CRAP! serious.. if u are ever gonna watch it
i suggest u dun ever see it
lols!
i didnt watch it in 3D
kinda wasted for de dragon show.
super touching and sad for de ending ):
but well it was overall a good ending!
freaking ate a lot during this weekend
but i kinda skipped both days of dinner :x
hahas!
but today im not gonna do it.
cuz im having lamb chop for dinner!
dad's cooking :D
it smells nice already XDDD
muahahs!
i ate quite a lot of heaty stuff during this weekend...
and i kinda feeel like a fever is coming soon ...
with my cough plus sore throat..
:D
maybe tml i will be sick lo.
and then i'll be having a ATT C :D

2010-04-02T11:55:00.003+08:00

YEPPIE ITS GOOD FRIDAY :DD
and im out from camp le hahas!
wahahas!
xD
kinda nice to have 2 days out.
wahhaas! wanna watch like both how to tame your dragon & clash of de titans lehs.
zzz
but almost fully booked le lo -.-
ytd 6.15 come out le
kinda super early
:D
and i went to chiong sweet stuff man!
all de times in there without any sweets is killing me
esp one with a very sweet tooth!
ate hersheys pie! drank coke!
& frozen yogurt!
OMG!
heavenly sia!
hahas!
now craving for ice cream :D
lol
i tink i will get diabetes...
but sweet stuff really rocks!
and i got this cool buddy that shares almost de same things as me!
as in personality etc.!
omg almost an exact replica of me!
:D welll~
he's more spoilt than me lo >.<
(Y)
haha!
actually we both are seriously spoilt & lazy...
lol!
wonder how we gonna survive together!!!
....
hmmm there are people we sure will dun like their personality etc de.
but ...
there is quite a handful in my coy though.
:x
dun wanna say who.
their attitude or behaviour really puts people off!
and feeel like punching them or sumthing!
LOL
at least im ignoring them.
or not talking much to them...

2010-03-28T09:28:00.002+08:00

some things in life are just ain't fair.
no use complaining about them.
haish.
another 14 more weeks seems like a super long time to go.
and im wondering if i wanna go ocs or sispec to torture myself further a not.
...
its another 6 or 9 months.
but its obviously better pay.
but im like no quite interested in de pay
LOL!
zzz
i hate making decisions....
sucks sucks sucks!
*wonders if bmt is gonna be tougher*
today gonna finish my uni application and personal statment etc etc.
get all admin stuff settled
so no needa worry :D

was thinking like...
when i leave singapore for 6 years to study.
im freaking gonna miss home and everyone else here!!!
i dun bear to leave...
but for my ambition in de future i like have no choice...
so i'll be back when im 26.
of cuz i'll come back in between la...
hahas!
wonder if im gonna adjust to life there...
too much thinking= too much worries.
D:

2010-03-27T12:21:00.002+08:00

2nd book OUT le! yay!
14 more weeks.
lols.
training is kinda tough but i tink i can make it
:D
so far i can do 2 pull up le
sooner or later i can pass already
de thing im scared of is SBJ!
and running....
we got loads of running sessions.
but i always get knee pain or wadever leg pain de.
then real sian cuz i cant run already.
like to de best of wad i can...
):
well i hope i can at least pass or improve a bitty bit b4 de end of ptp.
cuz sergent say bmt wun be easier than ptp.
in fact harder.
...
well im grateful oim having this ptp.!!!
and 8 weeks of it.
cuz i tink im gonna improve
lols
ROUTE MARCH!
omg. thats one of de most fcked up ones.
cuz its so much on your mental determination.
even 3km is so much for me.
i wonder...
if im ever gonna survive 16 km...
LOL.
im gonna go in tml 1855!
sian sian.
but at least im booking out on thursday :D
no RT please.
hahas!
oh yeah talking about de weather in tekong.
its like super unpredictable.
LOL!
there was this once.
we were doing starting some intensive training.
then it was super hot...
then it started raining
...
lols!!!
every so happy lo.
its unexpected lehs!
then we went into de shade and do.
:D
so nice!
and got one time we went to ladang...
then rain super heavily....
omg.
its like flooding tekong or sumthing.
and de drainage system is like.
ancient
LOL

2010-03-21T16:32:00.001+08:00

15 more weeks! JIA YOU NICHOLAS!! :DD

2010-03-21T16:20:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG!
like 2 more hours! and im gonna be on my way back to tekong already!
and there goes another 5 or 6 more days there.
sadly...
haish.
i hope 3rd weeks training isnt that bad!
pray pray clouds please come to tekong!
dun make it so hot!
rain also come!
rain like u never rained before in these 4 months
lol!
soon i'll be putting on my green army stuff..
and i'll be looking the same as de rest of de people there!
and sadly im only a RECRUIT!
puny fry!
people wanna smack us nia...
cuz we small small nia.
no rank lehs.
D:
...
stressed with uni application and stuff.
omg!
haish!
i dunno!!!!
army is just making it worse
im distracted everywhere!
when im training im distracted.
when im tinking of uni im distracted.
....
arghh
i wanna runn far far away!

2010-03-20T10:29:00.003+08:00

the sky in tekong is like so different from wad it is like in sg!
the clear sky~
cloudless and hot sky.
beautiful stars at nite :D
things that u wun get a cchance to see if u are not in tekong
but not any part of tekong!
in ROCKY HILL CAMP XD
cuz its further inland and less buildings there!
it jsut feels so like cambodia.
lol...
a small little shelter in de middle of a forested area.
and sky also looks like cambodia.
it keeps reminding me of it.
that kinda gimme de motivation to carry on!
but also like discourages me at de samee time ...
ironic eh.
well.
at ladang nearer to de ferry terminal u can see singapore.
its like so near yet so far.
de horizon is like singapore.
many lights and stuff.
and many planes pass by tekong.
it always reminds me how is it like to be so free~
hahas!
well we got the whole camp to ourselves cuz we are de only ones there
:D
15 more weeks!!
shuld i make myself suffer and go ocs for 9 months?!
or just be a normal man until ord?!

2010-03-19T23:49:00.002+08:00

im finally out of tekong like OH MAN!
no more forest!
and its like freaking idiotic when u sleep like in a place
full of birds that shit on de windows!
it sucks
we have to clean it.
but the good thing is that we get single beds instead :D
we are like so isolated from all de rest of de companies.
hahas!
few days in tekong.
no technology.
training training and more training~~
pracically sucks.
haish...
15 more weeks.
2 weeks passed already and it didnt seem that long!
;D
sometimes is kinda fun.
but sumtimes it sucks.
at tekong when we are far far away.
we get to see the beautiful nite sky~~
just like in cambodia.
it seems so much like it.
where i spend my 14 days.
its like no tech and stuff too.
and its a freaking total loss of my freedom..
thats de part where i haven adjusted much yet.
i hate being controlled.
HATE!
siighs.
well.
have loads in my mind during the army...
kinda emo-ish.
like doing pt..
then i keep thinkin...
where shuld i apply for uni and stuff.
and im kinda lost!!
lost in de aim and goal in life.
thinking about choices...
i hate making them too.
i just have to...
maybe all i need now is a good nites sleep
and i'll think about it tml :D

2010-03-04T09:07:00.002+08:00

just cant to seem to get ns on saturday out of my mind.
arghh
as many distractions i try to give myself like not working
D:
siann
watching videos~~
playing games.
going out!
i still rmb about army!
OMG!
every second that i have free will be thinking about it
....zzz how dumb can it be
its like weighin a lot on my head.
tml taking results lerhs.
...
i dun know what and how to feel...
all my energy seems to be gone worrying for ns.
-.-
i long for friday to come faster.
and saturday to never come.
it kinda seems impossible.
):

2010-03-03T09:59:00.003+08:00

okays~ that wasnt de last post before i become botak.
LOL!
cuz im tooo bored at home so posting now lo.
:D
some things in life that you cant escape from.
hint: **NS**
lol!
been tinking quite a lot lately ..
how life is gonna be like in ns~~
will it be that tough or slack?
welll..
i hope its avg bahs.
my imagination is just too feng fuu already..
tink until so much
HAHA!
results is making my imagination become no.1 in SG le
LOL!
:/
these few days enjoying my time out here~
and trying to rest also.
i'll just treat this army PTP
as jc PAE :D
its de same!
i go in 2 months earlier!
and become more comfortable 1st (:
and then 2 years~
vroom!~~!~!
its gonna be gone in a blink's of an eye :D
ohhh...
there's still another thing...
UNI courses!
omg~~
headache man...
just thinking of it.
arghh
i wanna just run run run run away~~
*although i dun run that fast*
BUT... yah...
run away lo.
thats me.
always running away..
one way to find me is to catch up with me.
or be thrown wayy behind :D

2010-03-01T23:07:00.002+08:00

no more feb this year le! omg
time passes quite fast!
2 months already gone le
...
results confirmed this friday!
ZOMG
hahas...
i hope its good :D
lol...
army coming real quick.
and the weather is just pissing me off! its like hot hot hot!
hahas!
just a thought.
quote"always know your opponent before fightin a battle"
i was tinking.
being random is actually a good thing :D
random-ness is like! pure luck i tink..
that makes ur opponent hard to counter you
and thats half the battle won!
by knowing your opponent!
another half is won..
essentially.
you win... XD
lol...
that was random hor..
hahas!
went out with mel & glo today!
very long nvr meet le.
i wonder when is the next time gonna be lo.
....
went to sakae buffet. then neoprints!
wanted to play mario kart on wii de.
but sadly dun have de game cuz its spolit
dots!
so in de end play pool lo.
hahas! :D quite fun la hor.
won quite a lot.
:D using random-ness...
this maybe the last post before i become botak lehs...
omg D:

2010-02-25T10:19:00.003+08:00

nth much to do this morning.
so i went to search for videos.
...
awww.
i suddenly rmb-ed our cchyco!
the syf!
and i suddenly feel like listening to it.
and then i was like OMG!
why cant i be in co again.
D:
haish.i feel so nostalgic lo...
i LOVE CO! :D
hahas.
even the jc one too.
(:
i love the parts where we had to train so very very hard for syf!
lol.
and the times we were performing and having a concert!
its so enjoyable.
but these times will not come back again.
its just the same for the A's
....
i was thinking.
after the release of de results
it may be the last time that we maybe see-ing each other as a whole class again.
D:
everyone has different paths then.
differenet routes.
we have different schedules and time tables then.
but there's one thing that will always remain the same.
we are from 202! (:
......................................
im gonna go army soon.
it'll be a while before im out again.
new people new frens.
it wuld just mean lesser time.
...
wondering how life wuld be in there.
the thing im scared of...
is that i will lian lei other people becuz of me.
i dun wanna that to happen.
im scared... what if i dun pass ippt.
worries....
just fill me up everytime im bored.
it makes me feel emo-ish.
withdrawn from everyone else.
and its a need for me to be alone for a period of time.
to settle things by myself for myself.
the emotional struggle.
):
more time and thinking is all i need.
just staring blankly into space actually helps.

2010-02-24T16:44:00.002+08:00

i just tot of one random thing.
the evolution of noobs.
NEWBIE > NOOBIE > NOOB > NUB
lol.
its kinda dumb.
but im wondering wad nub will change to next time
hahas!
im like uber bored at home like recently.
...
nth much to do.
except to wait for ns lo.
siighs.
4 months.
before i can pass out.
jia you, myself!
i can do it :D
LOL!
actually...
my schedule like super packed.
like almost going out everyday until like 12 plus like that lo.
...
im gymming quite a lot.
and swimming (:
im gonna be tan tan tan tan tannn~~~
la. la la la.~~~

2010-02-20T12:50:00.002+08:00

wooo~
im tanner now :D
lol.
people say i look different.
...
hmmm and skinny-ier
OMG!
i tot i became heavier lehs.
hahas.
1kg heavier. now at 67kg.
aiming to 70kg
and my appeitite like super bigg la.
wth.
eat so much stuff.
worse than puberty
-.-
i tink i can reach 70 la.
eating so much during cny
:D
i love love love...
PINEAPPLE TARTS.
CASHEW NUTS
PEANUT COOKIES
PISTACCHIOS
KUEH BAHLU.

i tink if i go visiting to ur house.
and u got all these at home.
i will finish them all
MUAHAHA!
xD
ytd went swim plus gym.
waa it took like 4 hours.
the longest ever!
....
then later we both go eat dessert mah.
i say i treat.
then was deciding where to go.
saw de HK cafe de ones quite nice.
...
BLWAEHHH
it was fucking horrible.
opps :x
but serious.
i ordered some ice kachang thing.
and cherry float..
and i tot wad cherry float was at 1st.
in de end it was cherryade and icecraeem
WTF!
and the ice kachang was like.
even though i got super sweet tooth.
its was $#%&$ sweet
LOL
....
in de end almost wasted everything.
only my fren took de safer choice.
go for ying yong.
lol.
siann.
spoil my appetite.
hahas.
then went to my fren house play sum game
LOL
lost 10 cents
-.-
diaooo~
hahas
then went on to play dai di.
then i go home sleep le.
....
yay!
tml im going to the revolving restaurant there
yeppie im so excited!!!

2010-02-17T23:44:00.002+08:00

waa~
qing song duo le
lol.
:D
today after all de visiting already lo.
then went swim today...
13 laps today.
was faster this time.
and wasnt that tired as the previous time.
then later go walk walk around.
and ate laksa
OMG!
hahas it feels that i just wasted that swimming hor.
but nvm.
i need more weight anyways.
so cny is a good time to be fatter xD
tml going for mahjong-ing session!
i hope i dun lose!
i dun wanna always gamble and lose de lehs.
must at least win once la (:
tml be the 1st time
HAHA!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i suddenly feel like....
i've like lost my frens?
...
i dunno but i just feel this way lo.
its sum sort of lonely feeling im having these days...
these feelings that i hate.
cuz i get emo real easy and think too much.
which is a bad thing.
D:

2010-02-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

2nd day of NEW YEAR!
:D:D:D
hahas
didnt do much today except mahjong-ing again.
LOL!!
didnt camwhore much today...
just a bit only.
im really tired.
i dunno why.
i like cheng bu zu already.
even though im not studying...
im still worrying about stuff...
its like dumb.
i dunno wad im worried about even.
but itts like a lot.
-.-
i tink i needa more sleeep i sleep too little these days :X

2010-02-14T22:53:00.004+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR + VALENTINE'S DAY :D
today is a super super fun day with all my cuzzies!
hahs!
quite long we didnt see each other already!
and we're so happy to be together again
playing MAJONG!
(:
lol
its like a majong-ing sesssion at my ah ma place.
i ate a lot and its really a lot!
its scary that i ate so much....
my ahma cooked super a lot lo.
within like half a day she like cooked so much!
i wonder how she did that.
got many many stuff!
my fave!
i ask my ah ma cook de
salted veg duck soup
YUMMY!
♥ YOU AH MA!
hehe!

2010-02-11T21:44:00.002+08:00

so many things have just been weighing on my mind recently.
i cant seem to take them off.
i dunno why.
i just havent got enough time and space to have my own personal time~
so now everything there!!
begging me to just think about it.
so i'd rather got emo-ish
cuz im worrying about everything too much.
i just cant help it.
D:
i wish i could stop thinking but sadly i cant.
even you.
added on to this already huge pile.
and its a heavy one summore.
i just have so many feelings running thru right now.
seriously i feel like just running away.
to sum where far.
and just start without any worries.
haish if only i could.

2010-02-09T16:31:00.002+08:00

finally i've finished working at robinsons le (:
the working place there is not very nice larx.
but i kinda miss come people there lo!!
esp my colleagues from my cashiers there de.
but i hate like 2 of the managers there lo.
i've learnt some valuable lessons there too!
but now im like free~~ no jobs left le. then super boring le lo.
nth much to do at home lo.
haish. now is just waiting for army nia.
and im feeling kinda afraid lehs.
well at least im able to meet new frens there.
now all my frens are either working in army le.
i feel so lost suddenly.
lost my direction in life.
):
im trying my best to find it back!
it'll take some time.
cuz now im gonna be emo.
and tink slowly...
wad do i really wanna.
now i really miss my cuzzies!!

2010-01-29T22:43:00.002+08:00

omgosh.
so long i nvr update le
haha
maybe cuz i busy ahs!
working LOL!
sian
im still working lo this time at robinsons.
its much much different from johnlittle.
i prefer JL more.
i feel like complaining here.
but i tink its gonna take like so long~
haish.
cuz of this work + reunion dinner tml!
i cant go pei 202 celebrate de FEB babiesbdae le
OMG summore im one of them!
my present SOBS D:
this time working with kai.
and met one of my primary sku fren there (:
and omg.
i next week afternoon shift
2.15pm to 10.30pm
LOL
i reach home already de next day le.
i realized that i;ve been going out much and spending quite a lot of money lehs.
always take from my bank
gonna bankrupt soon le
sian
but tml i getting my pay
WOOTS
i wonder how much is it
:D
...
i next time then continue bah
lazy le :x

2010-01-03T19:55:00.002+08:00

OMGOSH!
there's practically nth to do lehs!
D:
sian sian sian
play also play finish everything le.
so now gotta work lo
get some money and kill time
i wanna go out!
but mostly no energy + no money
LOL
tml is packed i hope.
going gym.
then go sch take money :D
then go out town!
hahas
shuld be fine la hor
mostly packed already.
going shopping haha!
then tuesday working le
WOOTS YAY!
i wanna try going to club
lol!

2010-01-01T12:18:00.002+08:00

A BIG BIG HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!! (:
hahas ytd was the last year of o9!
and i went for the countdown near esplanade there!
the fireworks was decent enough.
LOL
although not very outstanding or anything.
but its still acceptable.
no difference from national day...
i went there around 10 and its already so packed
OMG!
at 1st i was at vivo de then rush home change then go out again lol!
then went to have dinner at kuishin-bo!
:D
1st time going there!
hahas!
its nice and very crowded.
we waited for like half an hour before our turn...
i cant eat de main course...
but the dessert was fabulous!
sadly i didnt have enough space in my stomach for all of them
LOL
i really wanna go there again~~
to eat! (:
then we found joan they all.
for a movie at cineleisure.
we watched avatar.
its my second time.
but this time not in 3D
...
i tink a 3D or no 3D like no difference like that
LOL!
zzz
im so sleepy now but cant sleep.
i reached home at 6 plus.
took cab home.
not very ex la.
15 plus nia.
next time i wanna try going club :D

2009-12-30T20:54:00.002+08:00

i missed my 7pm korean show TWICE already ):
omg omg tml i must watch it lo
hahas
went out ytd and today.
ytd went lan and played L4D2!
super nice :D
managed to finish de last stage
woots!!
today was de training i tot there was like gonna be a little bit of people nia.
but like 30 turned up for it lo.
it was like omg!
hahas!
ended around 1 plus still okays.
it was at expo!
and titus n my cuz n me went to changi airport for lunch :D
cuz i nvr took de mrt there b4!
quite sua ku hor =x
wahahas
went to popeye for lunch cuz also nvr eat there b4....
de chicken is so so la.
kfc better (:
de everything is so much better than kfc
only de chicken is worse
hahas
then went to plaza sing for movie!
watched sherlock holmes
its a MUST CATCH movie!
de story plot super nice
and mysteries also lo :D
and i tink there's gonna be a part 2!
the master mind still not caught yet ...
LOL!
yay!
im so looking forward to it.
tml going out again ~~

2009-12-28T09:09:00.002+08:00

i seriously dun know why im bloggin now.
cuz i dun tink i have much to blog also...
went computer + furniture searching these few days!
i tink it was very successful....
everything i wanted was like criticized by my mum...
so i decided to keep quiet and let her do the choosing.
no point giving my opinion anyways.
they dun listen.
its just that i tink it makes them feel better if they got my opinion.
-.-
hate those kind of people.
esp those that are like so stubborn
if u dun wanna listen then dun ask for it in de 1st place.
waste my energy nia.
nvm dun talk about those not so nice de.
i went to watch AVATAR!
its super super cool!
the graphics are nice!
but de storyline is super predictable.
lol!
thats de bad part.
i watched it in 3D
its became more real.
hahas!
i didnt know it was like 160mins long...
i went for like 8.30 show.
and almost missed de last train home.
heng i saved like 30 plus bucks on cab fare from jurong point to my home
:X
i tink i shuld be watching sherlock holmes this saturday :D
this time i hope i wun go so far le
wahahas!

this time i wanna bao bao le (:

2009-12-26T08:47:00.002+08:00

wOOO!~!~!
xmas was uber fun man!
:D :D :D
it was at my cuzzie housE
we played majong like thruout the time there.!
was like around 30 plus rounds of majong played
this time i lost money ):
fake money :x
LOL
and the rest of the time was spent eating!
ate a lot and a lot.
i tink im going fat!!
hahas!
and got loads of present to open also (:
wahahas!
the log cake was also nice
but the best part was when i was drinking vodka...
de mix was nice!
my aunt mix de...
i drank 3 big cups of it~~
and then...
i was still sober
but i was super super red!
its norm for me (:
then i tried mixing my 4th cup...
but i only managed to take a gulp.
then thats all LOL...
i cannot take it lerhs.
i was like super high already.
if i finish my 4th cup.
i wun be able to post this post le LOL
my highness is laughing uncontrollably and talking extremly loud!
at least i know wad is it.!
hahas
next time would be drunk already
wahaha!

2009-12-21T17:04:00.002+08:00

blogging again cuz im simply too bored :x
i dyed my hair back already to dark brown!
its dark but still can see a bit!
its de colour i wan! (:
wahaha!
and i cut my hair!
slant in front & concave at the back!
lols
de slant a bit short lo.
wait for it to grow then nice le!
hehe!
ytd cut de i pei my ah ma go to bai bai
then after that go eat lunch and cut hair!
lunch was great!
we went to this nepal restaurant i went last time!
and i tried the nepal food!
its kinda spicy fried chicken with rice & their special sauce
everything is unique.
nvr tasted it b4!
it tastes like a tinge of sour sweet and spicy
with this minty flavour (:
hahas!
today went running...
lols
i ran one round then tired le.
& felt nauseous
arghh..
last time i got a serious headache...
LOL
im sickly!
haha
tml not going cycling but pei my ah ma make tang yuan!
its a festival tml! :D
i get to make n eat it!
i love it and its once a year!
yay!
and going out for xmas celebration on thursday!
i hope get tickets lo!
i so excited!
thursday faster come!

2009-12-15T21:59:00.003+08:00

i enjoyed myself loads today! (:
YAY!
hahas went out with my cuzzies!
actually its our 1st time out together without our parents
hahas!
super FUN!
went to play lan!
L4D!!!
then we went to bugis iluma there watch twilight.
its still okay la...
then we ate lunch at some jap cafe!
n took many many neoprints
hahas!
that was our day!
we talked a lot of rubbish n stuff!
and gonna have MAJONG this weekend at ah ma house ((:
OMG!
so looking forward to it
lols

2009-12-14T21:16:00.002+08:00

been back from genting!
hahas actually there's nth much there.
i spent my time eating ...
de weird thing is that im not growing fatter!
im thinner!
OMG.i need to be at least 70kg!
if i wanna a nice bod!
(:
hahas!
aim to workout and get one!
prove to people that im not that weak at sports!
lol!
thot was gonna take out braces le.
its been around 2 years.
since i had de feeling of no braces!
i tink maybe i will not xi guan at 1st
next month. confirm take out de!
JIAYOU TEETH!
i wanna the braces out!!
xD
been doing much much!
looking for jobs n i got one!
cashier those type...
its fine!
n tml gonna submit spca volunteer form!
looks like im gonna be busy (:
at least its better than being stuck at home.
next thing to do
register a timing for THEORY TEST!
i wanna drive asap!
wanna have de feeling (:
wonders who wanna take it with me...
hehe.
tml going out with cuzzies!
YAY!
play play play!!!
movie movie movie!!!
neoprints neoprints neoprints!!!
then wed shuld be go for job interview!
and thurs MAJONG
fri got surprise!
lol!

2009-12-10T12:58:00.002+08:00

now i feeling extremly bored.
theres practically nothing to do up here...
so im just like blogging at genting!
xD
hahas!
i like the cooling wind here nia.
and im stuffing myself with food here practically lors
haha
buffet all de way
makes one super fat
i tink i'll be gaining much much weight when i return back lo.
shuld be going to take out my braces on saturday lo.
im so excited
but my teeth like not very straight like that lehs
i'll blog more when i reach back (:

2009-12-05T10:00:00.002+08:00

grad nite was seriously sucky man!
no place to sit and then food is disgusting.
argh.
its just a failure i feel.
chalet was alrights.
just that its kinda like not as fun as it was out to be.
some arguments and conflicts maybe.
just that i dun know about.
im sorry.

2009-12-01T19:02:00.001+08:00

3 hours of sitting there and waiting for hair to dry is seriously not fun!
and its super boring.
got my hair dyed and highlighted. although not de effect i wanna..
but still quite nice! (:
hahas!
its just that now.
i got no black hair lefT!
hehe'

2009-11-28T09:26:00.001+08:00

i wish i wasnt at home

2009-11-27T15:35:00.002+08:00

bleh bleh
i totally forgot that today is a public holiday la
LOL! makes no diff anyways just that parents not working
n i cant go out T.T
sian lors ...
wake up super early today!
like 7 plus..
n im tired.
went to have brunch de.
i wanted mutton soup, went all de way to town to eat it.
but then PUBLIC HOLIDAY!
de stall nvr open..!!!
lol
then in de end went to tiong bahru to eat brunch
had lor mee..
its like ekkk
i dun like!
too sticky n it looks weird hahas.
pukes.
then went to continue searching for my jeans...
got my tie le but left my jeans.
so went to NP!
lols.
n i tried like quite a lot of pairs.
spent a lot of time in de fitting room!
tink de person also a bit angry le.
hahas!
I TRIED ONE THAT I LIKED!
but...
size 33...
too small cant even buckle!
size 34
looks FAT N UGLY!
lol
no size 33.5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in de end i got another one ...
SIZE 32!
kinda dumb rights...
looks okays okays!
(: then happy le!
my mum also promise go to de rotating restaurant there EAT
YIPPE!

2009-11-25T20:25:00.001+08:00

haish just freaking tired with my life.
naggs here and there.
im just tired.
i wanna rest.
its just that life goes on so fast!
no time to even slow down.
...
even if my life ended now.
i wun have much regrets.

2009-11-12T19:55:00.002+08:00

haish!
i shuld be studying now but i dun really have de mood to do so lehs
i feel like its already over! LOL! =x
zzz so dumb rights...
wad to study for maths P2?
practically nth rights..
lol
memorize formulas... thats de only thing i can do now
(: hope i get them all right lors
im like thinking the chances that i get an A for maths depends a lot on tml's paper
i didnt really do quite well for P1...
around like 15 marks are gone le.
T.T
...
siighs
i must do it..
for next year going up on stage!
AHHHH
lols!
i have confidence that i can get good marks for chem!
AN A!

2009-11-10T19:28:00.002+08:00

maths paper 1 today ...
lol
it was kinda funny though.
i saw de 1st question i was like...
OMG sure fail de
i was so tempted to give up ...
cuz its like 6 marks
n i cant do it..
anyways i did it lol!
after half an hour of thinking....
only 1 question dunno.
a little bit careless here n there.
but im sure i can secure an A
LOL!
i dunno i just got this feeling xD.
that if i can do paper 1
i can do paper 2 too!
okays wads for paper 2 pure maths.
hmmm..
-Differential equations!
-graphing techniques?
-binomial?
-maybe integration?
-sequence (NOOO!) it sucks :X
okays shuld be all these liao lo.
tml GP!
8-11 plus...
yay!
another A lol!
**cheer up peeps ! dun keep thinking about exams that are over!

2009-11-09T08:59:00.002+08:00

its just another day b4 my A's for maths P1. the paper i dread...T.T
i hope! i wish! i can! i will! i must! get an A xD
haish im revising now hahas!
just memorizing maths !
ever heard people memorize maths mahs!
thats me lo (:
hehe tml 2pm to 5pm !
JIA YOU NICK!!
lol...
im making my own breakfast now...
but haven okays yet im hungry!
i just saw a video my fren ask me go see
aww....
its like so sweet la..
how i wish!
hahas (:
but i tink i will make it true for me next time xD

2009-11-04T22:00:00.003+08:00

just wondering.
i'd rather have no confidence at all. (:
i dunno thats how i feel about myself.
so many days nvr update lerhs.
well things start to change. im not that sad anymore.
thats one.
and another is that i;ve realized much more.
like for today.
was doing maths.
then george ask me a question.
i was like ... i suck at maths totally and didnt even bothered to try out.
i ask kai help him then he say i can do it de.
i was ok. i did n realized i can do LOL!.
so all i had to do was to have more confidence in myself.
sumthing which i cant do ...
i need people's assurance to get my confidence.
sumkind of encouragment or security.
......
A's is in just 1 weeks time.shuld i say 6days
maths de 1st paper.
...
haish.
i dunno seriously.
shuld a have confidence in myself.
i'd rather not. cuz having no confidence = no expectations = no disappointment.
im scared to be sad.
lol!
i dun like that feeling. (:
so i'll just avoid it bahs
i know its just escaping.
but....
de only paper i like scared of is econs lol!
i seriously dunno wad will be de grade maybe a b or c?
thats wad i expect...
but i wanna A. LOL!
same for g.p too
then today...
kai said sumthing.
i was like shocked.
he said.
nick.
u can get A for maths ...
i was stunned
and i tink if i got it mr. wen will be stunned more LOL!
and i was tinking i got an A for de O's.
so i shuld be able to get it now xD
yay!
so my aim will be 5A's ((:
i can make it de!
jiayou!

2009-10-12T10:17:00.001+08:00

its the hardest when...

2009-10-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

why ...

2009-10-09T21:56:00.002+08:00

during the nights when i saw the nice bright moon
i always carried this hope.
this month when i couldnt see it...
it felt that sumthing just disappeared.
tonite when i looked up n saw that tiny speck
of star in that dark icy sky
i knew that a small glimmer of hope came back for me (:

2009-10-04T18:54:00.001+08:00

isnt celebrating mid-autumn festival a happy thing?
why do i feel so sad

2009-10-04T11:31:00.002+08:00

... ok this few days i like kinda nvr post lerh lol
cuz i really got too much to say... i scare post already then nvr end lerhs
tinking much these few days so much things going on
one more week we graduate lerh
2 more months we finish a lvl lerh.
then im like wondering will it be like same as secondary sch mahs
... kinda sad lor summore its like i dun like frenship to be broken
i scare after A's then we wun meet up anymore...
cuz we'll be all having our own activities lerh.
its easy to start a frenship but its difficult to mantain it bahs
haish i can just imagine...
the times after the A's when everyone is like going separate paths..
the feeling hurts.
but thats reality rights
hmmm
some frenship are weird i dunno how to describe it ...
actions and words never tally...
i say this and nvr do it
the other says that & nvr do it either...
i realized i get along well with almost everyone
and thats de prob
i get along too well with everyone that i dun really have that many closer frens
they are just like 'touch n go' ...
i dun want that .
instead of spreading time to all of them why not concentrate on some
but who shuld these people be...
its hard to choose.
it means sacrificing the rest.
....
instead of dreaming about this and that...
and wondering what if i had this...
wad if i was born....
and how wuld life be then
shuldnt i be like tinking of wads ahead n not the impossible to change
...
i tink thats just me bahs...
keep tinkiing about impossible stuff
always keeping up hope that maybe one day it'll be true (:

2009-09-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

blogger i hope will be back to normal hor (:

hahas ytd went out again after my dental

changed my colour to a weird colour

its supposed to be purple!

but it turned out to be pink -.-

dumb thing

hahas nvm about that!

i went out ytd

suppossed to go sentosa but raining so cancelled

so we went to orchard around there

shopped quite a lot then ate a lot too xD

ate fish & co. lunch. at amk

cartel dinner at plaza sing.

was gonna play lan one

but then a bit too late le

cuz like around 11 pm le

LOL then we still wanted to play ...

but i went back home 1st cuz mummy nagging le

hahas

with my this group of frens i luv it (:

i feel like super open and can really be myself without worrying

hmmm

nth to hide from them. we can also enjoy de same stuff together

also after i went out le

i was tinking why i was studying so hard for...

maybe cuz im following people bahs

just finsh a degree then its over!

i wun be studying woots!

im so gonna love it

2009-09-07T08:57:00.002+08:00

(: blogger like okays already

hahas

1 week of slackyness

haish i wanted to have it

but there is like super too much hw for me to do liao

siighs

serious ...

12 mindmaps

omg

prelims corrections omg

2 essays + 2 compres

physics ...

heng only chem good xDD

每次和你讲话，我的脸就不自不觉得露出了笑容。

2009-09-05T19:01:00.000+08:00

hai yo blogger still not okays
sian lo ...
i just reaalized the change from a maidy life
to a maidless one is super difficult
haish!
so much stuff to do urself already
etc.. put plates onto basin after eating
take out clothes from toilet after bathing
making own bed
...
SIAN
its simply weird for me doing all that
not xi guan
just now summore coming back home
i rang the bell -.-
stupid me!
got NO ONE at home help me open door le...
lols!
many many sadded

2009-09-04T08:28:00.000+08:00

nvms crappy blogger today must write no matter wad
siighs... super super sigghs
maid leave already T.T super sad leh
other times maid leave i nvr cry one
but this time is didfferent leh
cried a lot & dunno why...
sobs. its like water tap like that
wanna stop also difficult...
siigh maybe cuz she wun be here already
i wun be having another maid
and things arround de house will be different le
less one person
it feels weird....
and maybe its becuz of cambodia ba
when i left my frens that time it was almost the same feeling
im trying hard not to show it
but i still cried ...
its becuz of them that i can realize that my maids came here to
find a better living and pay than their own country
when my maid left that time she say sorry to me
then also gave me 100 bucks.... i ask her to keep it cuz thats
wad she deserved summore she came a long way from her home and
she didnt really earn much in terms of SG dollars
but in terms of their money its a lot to them ...
she's leaving sg le...
at 10am . she gonna take plane le.
T.T

2009-08-27T20:21:00.000+08:00

zzz
sorrys for not blogging so long alreadys
hahas
seriously feeel like giving up on blogger lerhs
waste my time i cant up load pics leh
SIAN!
life goes on with prelim like now~~
im like not playing that much le =x
and also today got econs ...
3 hours of writing crap
hahas
really! haven finished de essay
kinda expected it leh
lol i like half an hour left i keep telling myself
sure cant de so i was relaxing and doing it
lol kinda nice
but during the exams i was like looking here and there
then staaring and thinkin
wasting time lol!
haish shouldnt have done that T.T
anyways gotta say that maths this time was utter failure
just waiting for next thurs nia
ya ya!
got so many things happenening next thursday summore...
1st gome some stupid pressentation
then super nervous
2nd PRELIMS result
3RD and most IMPORTANT!
my maid going BACK
de worst haven come yet...
im NOT gonna have a new one
SOBS! omg whos gonna help me do everything
omg omg im like so so so dead
hahas gotta do more stuff le
ahhh!!!
here's wad gonna happen next week
WHERE'S MY SOCK?!?!
LUCY( MY MAID NAME) FASTER HELP ME TAKE!!!
.......
OH WAIT SHE'S NOT HERE ANYMORE !
-.-

2009-08-15T14:33:00.000+08:00

crap blogger is shit really
lol
i found this thing thaat...
0.999... = 1
is it true
lemme find out... (:
let 0.999...= x ----2
so 9.999... = 10x ---1
take 1 minus 2
9 = 9x
x = 1
therefore 0.999... = 1
Wtf?!?!

2009-08-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

hahas today's day was quite okays (:
went out to study one with kai they all
was supposed to meet at 10 but i reached at 12
=x
LOL! i wasnt late cuz i was lunching with my mum
hahas had swensens and quite nice also
at first tot that my trip there sure wasted
cuz will talk and waste time but it was quite okays
hahas i did one maths paper '08 (:
but can do more stuff one but then we went
to watch movIE
OMG
lols
its called UP! very nice to watch
its a bit childish but got a lot of funny PARTS!
hahas got a bit regret cuz i nvr watch de 3D one
sian!
i wanna go watch again!!!
HAHA
laughed aa lot too ((:
hehe tml must study lerhs
sigh more work to do ...
i gtg do like so much lo
... my mood just got soured
freaking mum complaining like i overspent
for my phone
wtf?!? i just like exceeded 10 bucks
not like some twice or triple de amt
she haven see b4 yet
i gonna use until exceed 100 then she know
!@$$#
i tink i go sleep better to be in my dreams

2009-08-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

crappy crap!
my blogger's prob still not okays
zzz so sian rights!
HAISH!
taalked about wad happenedd today i found one nice game to play
lols. kinda ironic cuz im supposed to be studying now
shuld be like wow i found a new forrmula or sumthing(:
WAHAHA!
i spent today doing a maths paper xD
lols and studied some econs lor nth much to do now
exceept to study and study
next week this time will be like having maths
GG hahas
i hope i can do well ...
wait no i MUST do well
lol (:
at least make it to a B or C?
its only 60 marks right
not very diff hor hahas
tml going out to study study study
hope i will be able to concentrate more outside
then sit at home and be tempted about games
hahas my mum gonna treat me swensens tml
woots!
hahas im gonna eat a LOTS! wahaha
ice creams is confirm sure have one
(:

2009-08-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

zzz kinda sianed about not going to school
being cooped up at home made me feel so bored!
it feels so crappy ...
really!
no things to do other than to study and stare at com
...
but at least today i went out for dinner (:
went to ssc its not very far
but quite a lot of dumb stuff there...
grr...
1st was the carpark its like super full even though
we reach at 530pm...
and the thing was it was full so one car out
one car in policy ... so when its out turn we went in
but realized that at the top floor there is like 3 parking lots
for 2 cars -.- diao .... cuz got 2 red sensors but 1 green one
dumb! okays then we like no space to park then must wait more
...
then nvms
we went to eat at astons!
its quite ok there the food .. but service is sucky
cuz quite croweded so wait a while
then our turn ...
go in
got my food and i wanted more tartar sauce so i asked
... then i finished half my food .. haven come
i ask again this time sumone else!
then i finished my food still haven come
WTF?!
its like super lousy service
i pay 10% service chaarge for wad
...
sobs
nvms
then after that i went to buy sumthing
i saw this nice banana milk drink from jap
and i bought it
when i reach home and drink
@@#@$# it tastes like horrid medicine or sumthing
lol! still got summore.. too much bad stuff
i wanted to buy tao sar pia cuz its super nice
then reach the stall then its empty
then got this siao girl squating down and callling sumone
i was like stunned....
LOL
funny peeps eh
i tink its my longest post after so many short ones
tml still got no skuu i bet im gonna rot!
...
i this morning did maths
realized i forgotten how to press gc for stats
wtf? lol its scary leh! omgs
hope i go out study on wed wun be so suay!
HAHA!

2009-08-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

1st thing to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
lol! just saw finished ndP 'o9
got to say its quite nice this year
and the theme song quite catchy also xDD
hehe . when i saw it i was super overwhelmed with emotions ya
i saw the clips with those singaporeans overseas one
... ): kinda sad when i rmbed that i will be one of them there
and its kinda far from singapore
will miss singapore one (:
and made me tink loads on skuu this short few weeks we are
having it as a class sobs
i dun wanna it to end !
just now say and think then almost cried
OMG rights...!

2009-08-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

today last day of skuu already sort of b4 prelims
i jusst realized affter prelim we maybe like have only 1 month with each other
before like not ever being together to study liaox leh!
sian! the more i tink the sadder i get ):
wun be having this kind of like classroom place lerh
i miss it leh!
craps today was really shitty! maxed!
haish ):
all i wanna say is that i wasted my time waiting
really...
dun feek like elaborating lerhs!
sucks

2009-08-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

ehhh... craps tml is some crappy celebrations day
dunno ur skuu is got too much kiasu-ness or wad
even few hours also dun wanna let us have
zZZ
its called KIAAM SIAP!
hahas!
dun feel well these few days
my back is hurting me! real bad
esp the lower back
waa its like suan until dunno wad shyt
i lie down on bed then not so bad
i sit also pain
stand even worse
):
hate it !

2009-08-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

ableh! loljust said that i was like a bit cranky during full moons!
i dunno why but i kinda like realized that these few days when i
saw the moon when i look up of cuz
LOL!
then summore the integration test today dunno how leh
very scared cuz although i finish fast maybe is cuz
i left out a lot bahs WAHAHA!
hmm nvm im still in DA anyways
sian
hahas
i wanna go sleep lerh
NITE

2009-08-03T18:55:00.000+08:00

@#$@##%#^ wtf its back again !
FIX YOURSELF BLOGGER
I COMMAND YOU!!~!~!~!
lols (: nvm larx hor its dumb anyways
just watched movie realized that im spending loads loads loads
im like super poor now ):
siighs its like negative. very negative
how come i see people spend so much still can save leh
TEACH ME HOW
lol!
i gottaa start revising soon
dunno much stuff anyways
i've like also got this like super anti-social feeling
comin back again . i dun feel hype or wanna taalk leh
i like wanna peace and a space of my own (:
small cozy one to think and hear myself LOUD.
sorrys if im kinda dao or anything
but i'll be fine soon i hope
cuz i really got loads to think about
haven spent much time thinkin so now starting already
it goes on actually ...
repaeating itself
and also this i got this weird feeling acting up
ZZZ
i feel crappy and angry with myself now like for no reason
but i feel like beating myself up o_O
LOL! ...weird eh

2009-08-02T14:34:00.000+08:00

f@#

zzz although the icons come back already

but i still cannot click leh!

dumb shit then come back for wad!

REPAIR IT BLOGGER

u useless crap!

lol!

so long nvr upload pics already lorrs

hahas my blog looks kinda boring alreadys

siighs

studying studying

BORING!

2009-08-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

yay hahas

im feeling happy + tired at the same time

LOL! played a lot today then

also drank like 3 cups of wine

but its 6 % alcohol nia dizzy and tired~~~

SNORES!

hehe so gonna make it a short post nia

WAHAH!

met new + old peeps today (:

still can rmb them wor hahas

i feel so guilty i ate so much today

esp JUNKIES

im gonna gain fats !!!

lol! 2 more weeks

PRELIMS lerhs

gotta start studying !!!

maths PHYSICS chem ECONS gp!

ALL ALL JY !!

WOOTS

im going CRAZY !~!~!~!~!

lifeaintthatbadw/ou

2009-07-31T22:18:00.000+08:00

hmmm i seriously got loads to write

but i dunno where to start from lol!

hahas i'll just write wad comes to mind bahs

i may seem weird but thats wad in my mind xD

WAHAHA!

one more WEEK!

then study break already everyone's getting sicker and more nervous of cuz

... i keep seeing people not coming to skuu then like

missing out on so much ... hope they can cope well hor

oh yeah summore our class like got quite high expecttion

from the skuu leh! lol

from wad mr wong say today they expect us to do super well

in prelims and of cuz A's

haish haish i very scare cuz prelims gonna be more difficult than A

its confirmed one even the teachers agree lo

lol! i wonder whether i'll have no time to do or stare at the question

...

zzz

im gonna miss NY test tml

lol! cuz i like going out tml then i wasted 20 bucks on it

sobs i feel that my money is flowing at like doubly fast as it comes in

im lousy at handling money

i like tink NS get 400 bucks monthly leh!

a lot people say its a lot

but i tink that i can like 1-2 weeks spend all leh =x

LOL!

nvm ...

im studying maths

OMGosh rights!

hahs i just dun wanna fail anymore

i realized i did like quite okays for promo

then flunk my BT this year

dunno what happen ... but its like almost de same topics

except vectors...

which i totally suck at it

i really like cant visualize the stuff...

sian i hope i can do much better in mr wen de test lo

integration hope i dun fail xD

MUST PASS at least

then after that climb up to top few

i realized i nvr kena b4 ever!

lol!

actually tinking back hor

i tink J1 more work to do lor lol!

i MISS PW

although others groups dun like but i wanna !

MY group ROCKS

hehe

oh yeah and we really went to 18 chef to eat

and really saw mr benny (:

we did it

and the food uber nice

especially the cheese!

WAHAH!

alrights i tink i write until here bahs quite tired le

hehe wanna go sleep sleep

2009-07-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

omg! its back (:

hahas they blogger is back to normal le finally

now is like so late le then i discover i feel like sleeping already leh

WAHAH

maybe i'll just type in my dreams bahs ((:

i feel that everyone is like super stressed up leh

CHEER UP PEOPLE

got people kena flu etc. then some super emo

if not is like the total opposite...

202 prelim coming lerh

2 more weeks OMG!

and then another 3 weeks of it!

JIA YOU PEEPS

we must show everyone that we're the best rights

cuz we're 202!

!!!

对不起

2009-07-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

... still not fixed and i dun like my post on blogger it looks wierd hahas!
but at least i can write sumthing i wanna post pic also cant now -.-
GRrR siighs nvm next time bahs hehe . 2 more weeks!
omg omg i feel so unprepared ... like not enough time to do all my revision
haish and im scared for maths now ... but i was like so happy that i solved one
question just now WAHAHAH !!!!! tml got test for differentiation hope can pass (:
also got chem test paper 3 . lol try w/o the book see how much i know so i know how to study
im like thinking after A lvl then NS comfirm 2 months early
that im like fine with it cuz i benefit anyway
the only bad thing is that im gonna be botak . CRAP i cant imagine how i look
bet its gonna be retarded... summore after that go uni wanna be vet must go overseas
it seems that the requirements arent so easy and its not gonna be cheap
hmm next choice is pyschology also pretty difficult here zzz
haven tot of the rest but this are my interest (: sure can get in one xDD
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thinking loads and loads dunno wads wrong with me sian
i get easily angered at times and feel super lethargic and sleepy always
zzz the only time where im calm and nice is during sunset bahs
cuz i'll always look out at it cuz i tink its the nicest time of the day (:
hehe also i like the song 'top of the world' its kinda old but its nice
beeen listening like a lot to it.
1 second.

2009-07-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

lols the post box thingy is back but wheres all the icons zzz
i cant make any colour shift it or even change de font
drats GRR!!! nvm hope thaat it'll be okays soon bahs
prelim timetable out lerhs siighs its like 3 weeks of exams
CRAP no time for teachers day also ): cuz the last day is after that
so sad rights we wanna bake cake for our teacher one but
now i dun tink anyone has the time now
hope they understand hor (:
i saw a new SHOE lol! its quite nice in black
but sadly they dun have my SIZE the sad thing is they got bigger size one -.-
so i made do with the white one HAHA it looks nice also after i looked at it for a long time (:
size 10.5 lol! weird sizing but still okays ((:
i hope im gonna get it later hehe
and today went out with ah ma go eat dim sum xDD
super super nice i ate a lot lot lot lol!
my ah ma see liao then shocked say 1st time i eat so much JUNK!
cuz i dun really eat much for dinner . cuz its rice =x
hehe just realized i haven start revising yets and i doubt one week is enough lorrs
tink im gonna need like 2-3 weeks for everything
haish so im gonna do moderaately well for everything bahs
hearing stuff from my tuition teecher he says that yj the physics super hard ):
... and im scared for my maths also die die die
haish left few more weeks dun even know how to integrate
WAHAHA ! its just that i need time to practise then i can rmb liao
practise a bit here and there then can lerh
i tink i can give up on vectors already
siigh chem looks ok(:
physics left the year one stuff
and econs is the year 2 things lol!
maths is EVERYTHING
craps gotta start soon
zzz im still not handling my money well
brb im off to causeway get my new shoes (:

SUMTHING WRONG WITH MY BLOGGER!!

2009-07-24T20:47:00.002+08:00

i dunno why my blogger is like this
but its kinda weird leh lol! cuz its like i cant see the blogpost properly when im writing like now...
LOL! nvms haish i dun feel so hype anymore these few days. and im lousy and controlling my finance zzz im kinda broke . very broke actually...
grrr i needa more $$$!!! if u got extra and u dun mind giving away sum . i dun mind accepting them ((:
muahaha! kinda thinking 3 more weeks then prelim lerhs.... 4 more months then a lvls lerhs less than 6 months ns lerhs. time is like passing super fast this 2 years i dunno why but haish... i dun wanna this 2 years to end ...i want a lvl to be done and over with yet i want the time we have as a class for a long time not to end... kinda contradicting rights siighs ): grad in oct theres only 2 more months we can see each other <3 202

2009-07-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

i feel so much like crying

i dunno

but i feel that everythings bottled up

and its gonna explode soon

with noone around

to tell

and i cant either

i'll just have to carry the burden

til my knees give way

for now

its already almost down

im scared

2009-07-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

i dunno

but im feeling kinda lost these few days

staring into space

wasting my time away imagining

wondering thinking

about things that can nvr come true

yahh

things can cant come true

it seems hopeless

but sumhow im still clinging on

onto some invisible thread

which i've made up

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some bonds made have been stronger

none of them fadin away

but yet there's one hanging in the middle

still very indecisive

sumtimes strong

sumtimes weak

i dunno where it'll head to

but i hope its to the strong one

enditquick

2009-07-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

i spent like most of my time doing maths today

LOL!

its the prelim paper

that mock one

zzz

i like about unsure =x

although i got like some help from mervin and kai

i still cant finish it

i dunno i do correct a not leh

sian-ed

haish at least i completed maths

and tml got vectors test

and the worst thing is the maths paper i did got no vectors

wad luck

i tot i can like practise on it if got

then save time

but dun have lol

pray hard (:

i hope i can finish it or even start it =x

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wasted some time staring out of the window

dunno why attracted to it

maybe its the cold breeze bah

i stood there

staaring out

cuz sunsett lerhs then quite nice

but all kena blocked by forest or hdb

nvr see the horizon b4

i wish i could but sg is not bigg enough la hor

then sky darkening lerh keep looking

seeing got any stars tonite mahs

suddenly i missed cambodia

LOL!

cuz the nites there are amazing

sumting that u will nvr see in sg

the scene was so beautiful until no time take picture

hahas the nite has always been so peaceful

i l0VEe it xD

iwasthinkingwhetheruwouldbethinkingofme

2009-07-09T21:51:00.002+08:00

my 150th post here ! lol

hahas gonna post about saturday (:

i knows its kinda late

but it was my cuzzie carnival

i went there to help him plus enjoy some free coupons eh

xDD

morning woke up at 7am

travel all the way to bedok which was freaking far

then reached skuu at 9am

their skuu very big n nice not like mine

=x wahha

well got loads of stuff to eat

SUBWAY!

BEN & JERRYS (remind me of wap)

NACHOS!

etc

lols

i ate around like 6 plates of nachos

the cheese was super nice

just like gv one yumm!

okok no wonder i got sore throat

plus then i won 2 monkeys from playing some game

its soft toy not the real one

LOL!!!

then the last and final part

i took the viking ship in the carnival

i know its small

and only reach 2 storeys

but i was SCREAMIN!

lol

which add on to my sore throat

then i went eat dinner

we chatted loads

and like so much stuff to say

awww

but then we went to eat

DURIAN puffs

super super nice

we 3 shared like 20 of them

and gobbled them all up

before i can take photo

zzz

thats how i got sore throat -.-

WAHAHA!

reached home around 9pm

and super exhausted

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alrights more about today

ytd i didnt go skuu

lol

so today went then pple say i got swine flu

wt...

-no comments for them-

but today was pretty slack

i auto-fail the maths test...

which was sad cuz its not very diff

and gotta do questions

but i tink i need the practice

tml even more slack

2 lesson nia cuz the other 2 teacher not coming

LOL!

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sumtimes near sumtimes far

i dunno which one i prefer

i hate choosing >:(

help me make one

2009-07-08T09:26:00.001+08:00

lol

i didnt make it and now im ill

zzz haish'

missing out so much today

esp its maths...

im like dying from maths

got asp plus test then didnt go

so today im gonna study maths

even though im sick

stupid me!

2009-07-07T21:08:00.003+08:00

i dun feel so well...

zzz feel like sleeping all the time

and kinda feel feverish

siigh

its like this stupid gonna get fever those kind of state

for like 1 week

and the fever isnt here yet

LOL!

its torturing me ....

im mentally exhausted with everything suddenly weighin down on me

i feel pressured

all the things i tink of adds on to my worry

and there im not able to tell anyone anything

i dun have a conifdant

and i dun plan on getting one either

too many things i cant say out

to anyone except myself

...

grrr

summore tml got pe leh

i dunno i can hang on mahs

haish

some happy stuff (:

went for sakae ytd

ate a lot

also spent a lot

lol!!!

haixx

no $$!!!

sian sian lol

im like owing $ and at the same time wan so much more

stuff which are like so ex

zzz

i wanna have another buffet

WOOTS

seoul GARDEN!!!

dunno why so many people dun like it

but its ok rights?

hahas (:

bunengzuowaidemah

2009-07-04T21:16:00.002+08:00

i saw this nice poem sumwhere (:

The dreamer

Always in the clouds

Escaping into fantasy

Worlds created in their minds

Worlds better

Worlds stronger

Stronger than true reality

We make our own reality

The dreamer

Wearing hearts on their sleeves

For the world to see

Waiting for the love of their life

To come and sweep them off their feet

Waiting for their knight

Knight in shining armor

The dreamer

Clinging to love

Even after it's long ago slipped away

Clinging to hope

Until they can't cling anymore

Clinging 'til they crumble

'Til they fall apart

Clinging to dreams, to made up realities

The dreamer

The artist

The hopeful

All these names

All these hopes and dreams

All this love

All from the pisces

nice XD

extracted lyrics from a nice song

Closed off from love

I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough

And it was all in vain

Time starts to pass

Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened

For the very first time with you

My heart melts into the ground

Found something true

And everyone's looking round

Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

...

i got some pics one but lazy to upload so next time bahs xD

2009-07-03T17:58:00.003+08:00

BOO!

lol came back lerhs today quite a lot to say dunno start from where

HAHA!!!

hmmm maybe start from skuu bah

met joan this morning in the bus lol

quite coincidence then went skuu

ok skuu was quite boring la hor

nth much

only thing is get back econ BT

zzz i tot at least i will like pass but didnt

sadded lorrs

RAWR!

nvms at least didnt do that badly

then we went baack to clean classroom

super dirty and its quite nice xD

cuz the class doing sumthing again today

opps haven celebrate may and june babies worr !!!

lol maybe next week bah

after skuu was okays

walked to np

wahh now its looks nice and bigger

and got NEW RESTAURANT

MANHATTAN FISH MARKET (:

super nice lol

cant wait for it

then realized sakae open lerh

maybe go eat on monday hahas

we pei joan go buy her doggie present

and also they pei me go get a new RAT!

lol its actaually a mouse

lol (:

went to ate sausages and also i bought a bakerzin cheese cake

WOOTS

wanted to eat ytd but bo liew (no $)

later gonna eat it hehe

haish

overall spent 31 bucks

OMG rights

sian-ed

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now talk about the not very nice stuff

....hmmm

i dunno but its about the same prob i said in the last posts

...

haish

now its like a huge huge barrier in between lerhs
seems like an endless ocean

knowing the other's presence at the other end

we both try hard to reach one another

but everytime we cross the ocean

almost when we reach the middle

a sudden storm and huge wave brings us back to where

we were initially

on the sandy beach , cold

lonely, hungry

we lie there starin up into the nite sky

wondering about each other

into the full moon we look

the other's reflection suddenly apppears

giving a smile cuz we know that

we care about one another

we have the thought but we cant express it out

one of them decides to give up

after everything

stands up walk away

and the reflection in the moon disappears

at the other shore the image slowly vanishes

with tears streaming down

closes eyes

thinkin about why did the other leave

....

<3thatwasmylastgoodbyetoyou

2009-07-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

...

im not in a very good mood today after i reached home

kinda grumpy and stuff

dunno why but i feel super tired like nvr sleep for the past few days like that leh

zzz so sleepy eyes so tired

CRAP!

but at least nvr go skuu today

think about nicer stuff

went to do medical checkup and its like

we lost our way there haha

reached at 930am

then finished around 1-2pm like that

not very long xcept for de computer that test.

sian-ed

haha

then went pizza hut eat xD

only 49 bucks cheaper than wad we ate last time

4 people 50++

now 6 people 49

LOL!

great spenders

then we summore go play LaN (:

for like around 2 hours plus 3

haha quite okays lorrs

then went back home

thats why so tired

grrr. i wanna sleep lerh

if not tml wun wake up lerh

LOL!

tired

and sumthing i got pes A!!!!

wth i tot i will get like D or sumthing

maybe sum heart prob or sumthing

but nth zzz

omg

and now im so unfit

it only means that

i can be fit

but nvr try

its the mentality bahs

always like this one

haish

= me having weak mind

siigh how to overcome it?

can sumone tell me

-expect the unexpected (:

imnotwadiseemtobe